We had grown apart for quite a while and I was just really heartbroken over it. I used it as an excuse to accelerate my drinking. You know, to be honest, I didn’t want to live anymore. I didn’t know how to deal with these feelings, and part of getting sober, it’s really difficult at the beginning. You are confronted with of these new emotions… You know, you’re not good enough. There is a voice inside each one of our heads, it was very strong in my head, which is really critical: ‘You’re not good enough’. …just a very mean voice when you look in the mirror. Parts of the aspect of… recovering from drinking was being able to recognise that voice and not taking it personally. Not taking it as truth. Seeing it as a voice and thought in my head that isn’t real. I don’t have to listen to it.